So the DOL sent the money. Haven’t gotten it yet. Of course I haven’t. I feel like contacting them and being like, ”Yeah, “sent on the 15th” is a lie unless it’s sent BEFORE the close of business. Y’all wouldn’t accept “2-3 business days after payday” from your employer, why do you think it’s okay to do to us?”

I’m just. So aggravated. People have bills to pay.

I’m trying to stay up today. I don’t know if I will; I’m very sleepy. I’ve been sleeping like utter crap lately. 

I reported a user on AO3 for scamming; they got removed under the spam rule, which is fine. The key is to get them off the service and make it clear that behavior is unacceptable. 

Anyway, I better go do something if I’m going to stay awake. 

So I HC Kain as being really good with kids, although canon itself says he’s not. He’s really, really abrupt with Rydia at the beginning of the game, a girl who is grieving and terrified. Then again, what happened at the beginning of the game was kind of an emergency, and maybe they just didn’t have the time to be gentle with her.

I have not been sleeping well at all. I got up at about 6 today, but got sleepy and cold in the middle of my breakfast and went back to sleep right after, didn’t get up again until 8. I’m starting to get nervous. How am I going to function at work?

I’m going to do the checkbook and then try to write. I feel sick about the situation we’re in, but I can’t do anything further about it. Just need to hope. 

I’ve lost all interest in my writing and almost all interest in video games.

Psychiatrist appointment in 20 minutes, although we’ll be delaying med adjustment until the hormone panel is done.

I’m just. Exhausted. 

It’s been a day. We went out to Runnemede to get my medication and some shopping, and we’re down to about $50, gas for vehicles taken out. I’ll talk to Cal and Dad about that.

The drive out there is almost an hour there and back, and I thought I was going to pass out by the time we finally got home and I was able to eat something. I’m still not feeling well. But Jessica gave me permission to actually use my coping methods to avoid binging. My primary “distraction” is video games, and I feel (felt?) like if I’d already played that day, I couldn’t go back to it, because of my history of escaping into them for hours—and I mean HOURS—at a time. Jessica told me that was a fair and valid concern, but that doesn’t mean I *can’t* use them as a distraction when I need one. 

So when I finish this, I’ll probably go play Breath of Fire. It’s not like I’ve played yet today, but I feel fluttery and kinda want to wait to see if I feel better before eating more. 

Oh, huh, hm. My YamiBuy haul has been delivered. Maybe a little snack after all.

I was asleep by 9, woke up at 2:30 thinking it was almost time to get up, kept waking up every fifteen minutes after that. I had such a headache all night, and woke up with it. I took some medicine so I feel a bit better, but goodness. Not fun.

Dad was unable to recover anything using linux. He’s not done, though. He’s hoping it’s a problem with the motherboard inside it, and we’re going to crack the actual harddrive out of it and try to read it directly from that. Dad has a device that lets him mount internal harddrives to his computer without installing them. Hopefully… hopefully…

Adept health is so fucking annoying. I shouldn’t have to tell them multiple times that I don’t want to do business with them anymore. Unfortunately I might have to. I think my only alternative is “Pay upfront and submit the receipt to your insurance for reimbursement” which just doesn’t work in my situation. I hate this. If all these idiots who are screeching about “freedom of choice” were actually right about our healthcare system, I would have the freedom to choose now.

It is what it is, I suppose.

Anyway, I’m at Barnes and Noble with Dad, and I’m getting ready to write while we’re here. We bought snacks with a gift card and Dad is reading a magazine he has no intention of buying, which is annoying, but he looks as elderly as he is. No one is going to say anything to him about it.

Before I forget, does anyone know how to remove a tag from your tag list? I have a tag that is embarrassingly racist from my ignorant youth when I believed that sort of thing to be funny, and I want it gone. 

I posted in datarecovery, saying

1) I’m trying to recover data myself

2) asking if I should just assume the drive is cooked

I got a single reply, very rudely telling me to take it to a professional.

This isn’t the first time I’ve been friendly and gotten a nasty reply out of the gate, and I’m now convinced that Reddit users are mostly troglodytes who probably were never taught manners and likely have the reading comprehension of third graders. Anyway, I think I can safely discard Reddit as a social networking site I want to use. 

I gave up on the recovery program I was using, and I’m trying Test Disk now. It’s moving much faster… and kicking out read errors in every sector. Yeah, the drive is cooked. I’m going to ask Dad to see if he can do anything with it, but I’m going to be organizing to rerip everything. It’s gonna suck, but it is what it is.

It’s letting me keep up with artists I like instead of discovering new music by stumbling on discussion on Facebook about it. However, the iTunes store keeps fucking crashing, so I guess I’ll be acquiring this music in other ways. 

I had an ~adventure~ yesterday. Went to B&N and wrote for a while, then went to shoprite and did grocery shopping. Then I came home, tried to reconcile the disability account, and the math wasn’t mathing. Here it turned out that the guy we got gas from, someone we go to constantly, did a pre-auth for $75. I was PISSED. The man knows us, knows our car, and knows that it’s never needed more than $35 to fill. It was $28 this time. The money is back in the account today, but we wanted to finish up shopping last night and that fucking pre-auth left us with $15. 

I am 100% positive he did it because the debit card is branded as being from the NJ Department of Labor, so naturally, I was trying to steal gas from him. Fucking loser. I’m not going to be paying him for gas anymore. Dad likes him but if he wants to get gas from him, he can pay for it.

Anyway, I got Rune Factory: Guardians of Azuma yesterday, and it is PRETTY. I’m still just starting RF3, so it’ll be a while before I play GOA, but still. I love the box. So pretty.