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joshuaorrizonteThis is my third attempt at this entry, as every time I open a new tab, this one wipes my draft. :p
TestDisk did not work. The drive is now in Dad’s hands; hopefully Linux will work. I have no idea how he’s getting the data to us if it does work, but we’ll figure it out. I have a plan C to rebuild our music library, at least, if this fails. It will cost us $50 we don’t have, but we’ll manage it somehow, even if it takes a few weeks.
My 2023 NaNoWriMo t-shirt has been found. We’re going to get a display box for it and hang it up somewhere. Where, I don’t know, but now that it’s a collector’s item, I want to keep it fresh. I’m so mad at them for what they did to their organization. They had a good thing, and then they had to go and get greedy, not only accepting sponsorships from AI companies (which I do believe very fer people would’ve actually cared about, money is money) but writing puff pieces extolling the virtues of generative AI… and then when they got pushback, doubling down and calling us ableist and classist.
Also, “difficult to maintain a community.” My friends, you shut down the forums because you couldn’t be assed to vet your moderators, then ran around the internet telling NaNoWriMo groups they couldn’t use the name. You destroyed the community. No one did that but you.
Despite all this, I’m glad I got to participate and win before they folded. It was an experience I value.
TestDisk did not work. The drive is now in Dad’s hands; hopefully Linux will work. I have no idea how he’s getting the data to us if it does work, but we’ll figure it out. I have a plan C to rebuild our music library, at least, if this fails. It will cost us $50 we don’t have, but we’ll manage it somehow, even if it takes a few weeks.
My 2023 NaNoWriMo t-shirt has been found. We’re going to get a display box for it and hang it up somewhere. Where, I don’t know, but now that it’s a collector’s item, I want to keep it fresh. I’m so mad at them for what they did to their organization. They had a good thing, and then they had to go and get greedy, not only accepting sponsorships from AI companies (which I do believe very fer people would’ve actually cared about, money is money) but writing puff pieces extolling the virtues of generative AI… and then when they got pushback, doubling down and calling us ableist and classist.
Also, “difficult to maintain a community.” My friends, you shut down the forums because you couldn’t be assed to vet your moderators, then ran around the internet telling NaNoWriMo groups they couldn’t use the name. You destroyed the community. No one did that but you.
Despite all this, I’m glad I got to participate and win before they folded. It was an experience I value.
Reddit is a cesspit, lmao
Jul. 6th, 2025 09:14 amjoshuaorrizonteI posted in datarecovery, saying
1) I’m trying to recover data myself
2) asking if I should just assume the drive is cooked
I got a single reply, very rudely telling me to take it to a professional.
This isn’t the first time I’ve been friendly and gotten a nasty reply out of the gate, and I’m now convinced that Reddit users are mostly troglodytes who probably were never taught manners and likely have the reading comprehension of third graders. Anyway, I think I can safely discard Reddit as a social networking site I want to use.
I gave up on the recovery program I was using, and I’m trying Test Disk now. It’s moving much faster… and kicking out read errors in every sector. Yeah, the drive is cooked. I’m going to ask Dad to see if he can do anything with it, but I’m going to be organizing to rerip everything. It’s gonna suck, but it is what it is.
1) I’m trying to recover data myself
2) asking if I should just assume the drive is cooked
I got a single reply, very rudely telling me to take it to a professional.
This isn’t the first time I’ve been friendly and gotten a nasty reply out of the gate, and I’m now convinced that Reddit users are mostly troglodytes who probably were never taught manners and likely have the reading comprehension of third graders. Anyway, I think I can safely discard Reddit as a social networking site I want to use.
I gave up on the recovery program I was using, and I’m trying Test Disk now. It’s moving much faster… and kicking out read errors in every sector. Yeah, the drive is cooked. I’m going to ask Dad to see if he can do anything with it, but I’m going to be organizing to rerip everything. It’s gonna suck, but it is what it is.
Well, okay. *sniffle*
Jul. 5th, 2025 07:37 amjoshuaorrizonteTMW your decades-old external drive is no longer recognized by your computer and is clicking at you.
I should've taken the time to get *everything* off the drive, not just the stuff I wanted on the new one. I knew it was very old. I knew it was having trouble. I just thought I could squeeze another year out of it.
A drive recovery program is running right now, and it sees the drive as "Lost Partition" so I have hope. Not much, but I do. If I recover my music library I'll be happy. It's taken almost 24 hours so far and it's about maybe 5% done, by my calculations. I'm really bad at math, though, so I'm hoping it's a little farther along than that.
Went to Sprouts yesterday. Fresh veggies, frozen veggies, veggie burgers. Some other stuff I don't remember, but it was all needed. We didn't have a single goddamn vegetable in the house before that trip. I had to dip into money I was trying to save for upcoming bills, but it was worth it.
I hope.
I should've taken the time to get *everything* off the drive, not just the stuff I wanted on the new one. I knew it was very old. I knew it was having trouble. I just thought I could squeeze another year out of it.
A drive recovery program is running right now, and it sees the drive as "Lost Partition" so I have hope. Not much, but I do. If I recover my music library I'll be happy. It's taken almost 24 hours so far and it's about maybe 5% done, by my calculations. I'm really bad at math, though, so I'm hoping it's a little farther along than that.
Went to Sprouts yesterday. Fresh veggies, frozen veggies, veggie burgers. Some other stuff I don't remember, but it was all needed. We didn't have a single goddamn vegetable in the house before that trip. I had to dip into money I was trying to save for upcoming bills, but it was worth it.
I hope.
Apple Music Good, Actually.
Jul. 4th, 2025 08:33 amjoshuaorrizonteIt’s letting me keep up with artists I like instead of discovering new music by stumbling on discussion on Facebook about it. However, the iTunes store keeps fucking crashing, so I guess I’ll be acquiring this music in other ways.
I had an ~adventure~ yesterday. Went to B&N and wrote for a while, then went to shoprite and did grocery shopping. Then I came home, tried to reconcile the disability account, and the math wasn’t mathing. Here it turned out that the guy we got gas from, someone we go to constantly, did a pre-auth for $75. I was PISSED. The man knows us, knows our car, and knows that it’s never needed more than $35 to fill. It was $28 this time. The money is back in the account today, but we wanted to finish up shopping last night and that fucking pre-auth left us with $15.
I am 100% positive he did it because the debit card is branded as being from the NJ Department of Labor, so naturally, I was trying to steal gas from him. Fucking loser. I’m not going to be paying him for gas anymore. Dad likes him but if he wants to get gas from him, he can pay for it.
Anyway, I got Rune Factory: Guardians of Azuma yesterday, and it is PRETTY. I’m still just starting RF3, so it’ll be a while before I play GOA, but still. I love the box. So pretty.
I had an ~adventure~ yesterday. Went to B&N and wrote for a while, then went to shoprite and did grocery shopping. Then I came home, tried to reconcile the disability account, and the math wasn’t mathing. Here it turned out that the guy we got gas from, someone we go to constantly, did a pre-auth for $75. I was PISSED. The man knows us, knows our car, and knows that it’s never needed more than $35 to fill. It was $28 this time. The money is back in the account today, but we wanted to finish up shopping last night and that fucking pre-auth left us with $15.
I am 100% positive he did it because the debit card is branded as being from the NJ Department of Labor, so naturally, I was trying to steal gas from him. Fucking loser. I’m not going to be paying him for gas anymore. Dad likes him but if he wants to get gas from him, he can pay for it.
Anyway, I got Rune Factory: Guardians of Azuma yesterday, and it is PRETTY. I’m still just starting RF3, so it’ll be a while before I play GOA, but still. I love the box. So pretty.
I dunno, man, I just work here
Jul. 3rd, 2025 07:54 amjoshuaorrizonteDad found the Barnes & Noble gift card. I bought some things I don’t strictly need on Amazon but really, really wanted (Bubblegum Mogu Mogu juice, more drink mix, and a floral culinary syrup sampler) as well as three undershirts for Cal (although I feel like we way overpaid for them, it’s the brand he wanted…) There was also a Christmas DVD in the cart and I went ahead and bought that. It was less than $5.
I’m quite irate at the state. I’ve been without income for almost a month, and they gave me a single week’s pay this week. Even taking the waiting week into account, they owe me two. I’m going to be so pissed if I never get that missing week.
In terms of video games, there were indeed cheats for Breath of Fire 3. The only problem? A bug in which if I use the front character’s field action, that character freezes. Not the game. Not the emulator. The CHARACTER. I can fix it by turning off the cheats and pressing the direction button rapidly, but man, that’s annoying.
Anyway, gonna play some BoF3, speaking of it
I’m quite irate at the state. I’ve been without income for almost a month, and they gave me a single week’s pay this week. Even taking the waiting week into account, they owe me two. I’m going to be so pissed if I never get that missing week.
In terms of video games, there were indeed cheats for Breath of Fire 3. The only problem? A bug in which if I use the front character’s field action, that character freezes. Not the game. Not the emulator. The CHARACTER. I can fix it by turning off the cheats and pressing the direction button rapidly, but man, that’s annoying.
Anyway, gonna play some BoF3, speaking of it
C’mon, man. Just pay me.
Jul. 2nd, 2025 06:49 amjoshuaorrizonteIt’s July 2nd, no money from disability yet. C’mon, guys. Push the button. It’s not that hard.
It’s really fucking annoying that the disability website will let you go through all of the login steps before saying “lol no, it’s too early for this.” Fuckers, tell me that before I put in my password and whatnot. Just make the site inaccessible until it’s time. Fuck.
I got a bit of writing done last night, as well as a little bit of Breath of Fire 3. I got too annoyed with the vinegar well mini game and just put in a code for all items + infinite items. That’ll show this damn game. I hate that mini game, it’s nearly impossible.
Coming up, though, is the shallows mini game, and I’m not sure I can cheat my way through that. We’ll see in just a few seconds, because I want to play before anything else.
It’s really fucking annoying that the disability website will let you go through all of the login steps before saying “lol no, it’s too early for this.” Fuckers, tell me that before I put in my password and whatnot. Just make the site inaccessible until it’s time. Fuck.
I got a bit of writing done last night, as well as a little bit of Breath of Fire 3. I got too annoyed with the vinegar well mini game and just put in a code for all items + infinite items. That’ll show this damn game. I hate that mini game, it’s nearly impossible.
Coming up, though, is the shallows mini game, and I’m not sure I can cheat my way through that. We’ll see in just a few seconds, because I want to play before anything else.
Yaaaaay
Jul. 1st, 2025 07:29 amjoshuaorrizonteI finally got my disability debit card, and my app is all set up. Now is the waiting for the funds. God, I hope there’s backpack in that payment.
I”m not feeling well today. I think it’s going to be a take-it-easy day. I tried to go back to sleep just now but my head hurts and I was BORED, so that’s a good sign that I don’t need more sleep. The boredom part, not the head hurting part. But I can’t get comfortable. Might go for a quick walk once the medicine kicks in.
Apparently there was a thunder storm last night that I slept through. Unusual for me.
I’m gonna go see if I can have some of Dad’s Tums. I don’t have much to say now, anyway.
I”m not feeling well today. I think it’s going to be a take-it-easy day. I tried to go back to sleep just now but my head hurts and I was BORED, so that’s a good sign that I don’t need more sleep. The boredom part, not the head hurting part. But I can’t get comfortable. Might go for a quick walk once the medicine kicks in.
Apparently there was a thunder storm last night that I slept through. Unusual for me.
I’m gonna go see if I can have some of Dad’s Tums. I don’t have much to say now, anyway.
I can’t think of a title
Jun. 30th, 2025 08:23 amjoshuaorrizonteI had an okay day yesterday. I’ve got a method for cleaning up the mess that the bug on 4thewords left, and that seems to be working well.
Tomorrow will be July 1, and I still don’t have my debit card from the state. I have the option to call or email, and maybe this is a mistake, but I’m going to wait until I haven’t gotten it in the mail tomorrow to do so. Hopefully I get it in the next two days.
I showered last night and (gently) scrubbed down this time. I feel better having done that; I was just getting in, splashing a bit int he water, and then getting out (and washing my hair when it was time). That works in a pinch but it was nice to soap up. My hands DID NOT like it, though, so I ended up using my aquaphor, too.
I need a haircut.
Anyway, I’m most of the way through Breath of Fire 3, and now the question will be: will I actually play through BoF 4 and 5? I’m sure going to try.
Tomorrow will be July 1, and I still don’t have my debit card from the state. I have the option to call or email, and maybe this is a mistake, but I’m going to wait until I haven’t gotten it in the mail tomorrow to do so. Hopefully I get it in the next two days.
I showered last night and (gently) scrubbed down this time. I feel better having done that; I was just getting in, splashing a bit int he water, and then getting out (and washing my hair when it was time). That works in a pinch but it was nice to soap up. My hands DID NOT like it, though, so I ended up using my aquaphor, too.
I need a haircut.
Anyway, I’m most of the way through Breath of Fire 3, and now the question will be: will I actually play through BoF 4 and 5? I’m sure going to try.
Hnnng…
Jun. 29th, 2025 09:21 amjoshuaorrizonteSo last night Cal’s phone payment came out. That was $90 I had forgotten about. Fortunately we had the money that kind soul donated for the car insurance, but that drops the amount we have to offset the additional payments to $100.
And I still haven’t gotten my debit card from the state. I feel sick. Hopefully I get that today.
I’ve come up with a plan to repair the files damaged in the bug on 4tw. I’ve got a repair project, and a repair log file where I’m listing the files that I’ve rewritten the ending. I’ll do one per day, and then write normally for the rest of my writing. Hopefully this gets me out of this rut I’m in.
So Cal has, I think he said, 54 hours last week, and we’re starting this week with 2 hours of overtime. All because this organization does absolutely no maintenance on their heat/cool systems between seasons. That has to be it, because this happens EVERY TIME the weather changes. I’m not complaining much, as we desperately need the money, but I’d like for Cal to be able to not spend his weekend working once in a while.
In other, work related news, when Orlando laid me off, he told me to hold onto the computer equipment in case he decides to hire me as a contract worker sometime down the line. That was 2 years ago, and communication from him has been minimal. I texted him asking if I can just buy the equipment off him. No answer, and I’m wondering when I can consider this stuff abandoned. I’ll probably give it a week and then ask Dad about using Linux to crack the admin password because I’m tired of it taking up space when I have plenty of things I can use it for.
And I still haven’t gotten my debit card from the state. I feel sick. Hopefully I get that today.
I’ve come up with a plan to repair the files damaged in the bug on 4tw. I’ve got a repair project, and a repair log file where I’m listing the files that I’ve rewritten the ending. I’ll do one per day, and then write normally for the rest of my writing. Hopefully this gets me out of this rut I’m in.
So Cal has, I think he said, 54 hours last week, and we’re starting this week with 2 hours of overtime. All because this organization does absolutely no maintenance on their heat/cool systems between seasons. That has to be it, because this happens EVERY TIME the weather changes. I’m not complaining much, as we desperately need the money, but I’d like for Cal to be able to not spend his weekend working once in a while.
In other, work related news, when Orlando laid me off, he told me to hold onto the computer equipment in case he decides to hire me as a contract worker sometime down the line. That was 2 years ago, and communication from him has been minimal. I texted him asking if I can just buy the equipment off him. No answer, and I’m wondering when I can consider this stuff abandoned. I’ll probably give it a week and then ask Dad about using Linux to crack the admin password because I’m tired of it taking up space when I have plenty of things I can use it for.
So. This is turning into A Thing
Jun. 28th, 2025 08:03 amjoshuaorrizonte A little bit ago, 4thewords suffered a bug that wiped out quite a number of words. Most were able to recover them; I was not. It’s killed my motivation to write, so I’m not writing, and I’m getting depressed about it. I need to figure out how I’m going to recreate those words, but it’s such a big task, it’s overwhelming. I don’t know how to handle this.
Last night I asked Cal if he thinks we chased the mice away, because no one had seen or heard one in like a week. The moment the question was out of my mouth, we heard utterly *desperate* scrabbling from the recycle container. Cal put another bin in it to contain them; didn’t crush them, because there was stuff in it, of course. He took it out to his work and let them go this morning.
I’m either going to go back to sleep now, or play Breath of Fire 3 a bit. I’m edging to more sleep, but I don’t really want to do that. I’m just so tired…
Last night I asked Cal if he thinks we chased the mice away, because no one had seen or heard one in like a week. The moment the question was out of my mouth, we heard utterly *desperate* scrabbling from the recycle container. Cal put another bin in it to contain them; didn’t crush them, because there was stuff in it, of course. He took it out to his work and let them go this morning.
I’m either going to go back to sleep now, or play Breath of Fire 3 a bit. I’m edging to more sleep, but I don’t really want to do that. I’m just so tired…
Grocerying grocerying grocerying
Jun. 27th, 2025 08:25 amjoshuaorrizonteGonna go grocerying soon. As soon as my stomach settles from breakfast, I think. I might take a zofran. I don’t know. I think I might need it today.
I feel icky in general today, but the heat’s finally broken, so I’m hoping to be able to enjoy some time outside.
I texted an older friend I haven’t heard from in a while; I know him through his wife, we used to work together. She had a stroke a couple years ago; he said that she’s improving every day, and that he’s preparing for retirement! Happy for them. I’m a little jealous that Mom’s stroke lead to her death; not that I want Ellyn to have died, absolutely not, but why couldn’t Mom have recovered, too?
I feel like a horrible human being for this.
We’re going to be going to see them sometime in July, hopefully. It’s been a long, long while, and I miss chatting with Ellyn. I might text Orlando, too, if for no other reason than to ask him if I can buy the computer off him. It’s been, gosh, three years? Four? I think it’s time.
Anyway, going to go to the grocery store in 8 minutes, so I better get going.
I feel icky in general today, but the heat’s finally broken, so I’m hoping to be able to enjoy some time outside.
I texted an older friend I haven’t heard from in a while; I know him through his wife, we used to work together. She had a stroke a couple years ago; he said that she’s improving every day, and that he’s preparing for retirement! Happy for them. I’m a little jealous that Mom’s stroke lead to her death; not that I want Ellyn to have died, absolutely not, but why couldn’t Mom have recovered, too?
I feel like a horrible human being for this.
We’re going to be going to see them sometime in July, hopefully. It’s been a long, long while, and I miss chatting with Ellyn. I might text Orlando, too, if for no other reason than to ask him if I can buy the computer off him. It’s been, gosh, three years? Four? I think it’s time.
Anyway, going to go to the grocery store in 8 minutes, so I better get going.